Dear Internet

I don't usually post about this kind of stuff, 

but this is something that has been really bothering me lately, so I thought I'd write it down...

This is a post about nursing. It won't be long, but you don't have to read it.

Nursing did not go well for Piper and I. 

We had to start supplementing her with formula the day after she was born while we were still in the hospital. 

I didn't think that it was going to be a big deal, since I already wanted her to be taking at least one bottle a day...

We got home and things were going pretty well.

Kinda.

When she was about 2 weeks old, we got thrush. (OUCH!)

It was awful.

I couldn't get her to nurse at all.

It cleared up quickly and things kinda went back to normal for maybe 3 weeks.

But she hated it.

She didn't like being restricted and wanted to feed herself!

Soon, I started giving her 2 formula bottles a day just to give myself a break from all the wrestling matches we were having.

We were ending most feedings in tears and I was hating every minute of it and so was she.

I went back to work and she started getting more bottles.

All she wanted to do during feedings was play and talk to me.

It is still the case. 

If you've ever been around her, you know.

It takes her about an hour to eat a 6 oz bottle.

She will eat for about 20 seconds and then take off and play for 10 minutes and then come back for more.

We nursed for a little less than 4 months. My goal was 6. 

At first I was more than OK with it.
I decided not to pump, which has been pricy, but whatever.
I'm still OK with it... I'm just sick of people asking me about it.
 

To all the people in the world who have given me a hard time about not nursing for at least a year:

 Every mom is different and every baby is different. 

You do not get to judge me for not nursing my baby anymore.

She is healthy and strong.

And those 4 months were some of the hardest times that I've had.

Please don't judge me.

Or anyone else for that matter! 

That's all folks!