how are you?

I've been asked this question many times over the last few weeks... "how are you doing?"

Well, here's how I'm doing...

Physically, I'm fine. Better than I've felt since January. Pregnancy is hard on every woman. There's no way around it. And this time was particularly difficult for me. So physically, I'm feeling pretty fantastic. Food tastes good again and I have enough energy to enjoy a day with my little girl. 

Emotionally, most of the time I'm OK. I'm still having ups and downs and there are a couple of things that will make me a little emotional. I'm terribly sad to have had my pregnancy have such a bad ending. Every day I wish my little boy was with me, but I'm OK. I've chosen to accept the fact that everything is over, there isn't anything anyone could have done, and try to be the best mom for my little girl that I possibly can. 

Like I said in my earlier post, I have faith that I will see my little boy again. And that faith is what helps me. I don't know what I would do without the knowledge of the Gospel. I'm very sad that our little boy isn't here with us now, but I know that everything will work out. I know we will be all together as a family if we live according to the commandments.

And, quite honestly, Piper makes everything so amazing! I am so lucky to have such a great little girl at home and I thank the Lord every single day for how lucky I am to be with her every single day! Even when she bosses me around. haha. 

So, for those of you who have been asking and wondering, I'm OK.

And, Thanks for asking. Its nice to feel like someone cares. 

xoxoxo