Inspiration

I came across this quote the other day, and it hit home with me.

"First of all, I do not want you to give in to the pressure of the moment. Whenever you're hurting bad, just hang in there. Finish the day... Second, take it one day at a time. One phase at a time. Don't let your thoughts run away with you, don't start planning to bail out because you're worried about the future and how much you can take. Don't look ahead to the pain. Just get through the day, and there's a wonderful career ahead of you." -Elder Christofferson

This is something that I have seriously been struggling with over the last few months.

I worry a lot. I worry about the most absurd things.

Seriously.

I'm out of control.

This quote reminded me to really just take things a day at a time.

As much as I have been struggling with motivation and self-determination, I know that taking it one day at a time is the only way to have real success.

My "theme" for this year is to "re-commit."

I'm trying to dive face first into my life and take hold of myself again.

I want to "re-commit" myself to school, work, my family, taking better care of my home, the Gospel, music and violin, along with many other things. I made myself little signs that are on my mirror and fridge to remind myself of my goals. (This actually WORKS! Not kidding)

I want to rearrange my priorities and actually feel like I am capable of success.

I'm not doing as well with this whole "re-commit" thing, but I'm just trying to take it one day at a time.

I'm not perfect. In fact, I'm so far from it!

But, I do feel like I am closer to achieving my goals and to becoming the person who I really want to be.

This semester seems to be killing everyone I know. I'm literally dying for classes to be over and hoping that I can make it out alive and mostly unscathed.

I just can't wait for it to be over.

8 months until I graduate! I will have a degree in History with (most likely) a minor in Music!!!

I often need to remind myself that despite how much I HATE school and all that it encompasses, the end goal will be worth it!

I will graduate and be able to successfully provide for my family as needed!

I will have FINISHED something.

Something that has been super hard for me to accomplish!

I will have had success!!

(Even though the grades and test scores won't necessarily show it)

I will finish this and I will finish it strong and I will be a better person because of it.

Recipe for today's success

dr. pepper - wild cherry slurpies and chocolate dunford donuts.

they make the world a better place.

especially when your day looks like this:

• work 4 hours.
• relief society dinner at 6:30
  
• 3-4 page paper on a book you haven't quite finished reading
• study for a quiz on a book you really haven't finished reading
• study for a floral design ID quiz (these are really scary)
  
• help your husband get his homework/tests/projects done
• not to mention: class
• try to get to the gym. (probably not going to happen)
• starting a 20 pg paper that is due in a little over a week that you really haven't started.... AH

Life is pretty hectic right these days. I just keep reminding myself that after this horribly hard semester I only have 4 classes left!!!!!

Back to work!!!

Keep Calm and Carry On

I tend to worry a lot. It's just something that I have grown to live with. I stress about being on time to something, finishing homework, taking tests, even just walking to campus can stress me out a lot. Way more than it should.

Basically, I stress. Often. More than most people probably know. There are a lot of little things that I completely lose it over, that I don't really even mention to people.

Then the explosion happens. Everything comes out with a BANG! It can get really ugly.

This semester/year/the rest of my life... I am trying to be better about this. I have found that I just have to let things go and happen as they may.


My new philosophy:

Well, its not exactly new. Its actually one of 3 posters from England during WWII which has kinda stuck around in England and is sort of their motto in a sense.

But, in my life it is new. I'm really striving for patience with myself and to have a more calm and collected attitude.

Yes, this is very difficult for me. Especially now when I am surrounded by circumstances out of my control everyday. My goal is to "keep calm and carry on."

This doesn't mean that I am just going to sit around and not do anything with my life. I will still work hard and probably stress a lot. I have other goals that I will not let pass by me. But, the stupid, pointless, little things that don't matter in an eternal perspective I am going to try my best to let go. I want to, in a way, be back to my laid back, old self like back in the high school days. But, only kinda.